I think the thing that makes me angriest about people like this is that they pick and choose parts of the bible to believe and enforce. What gives them the right I say that gay people are going to hell, but not people who get divorced, or who marry someone who isn't a virgin? NOTHING NOTHING gives them that right.
Okay, I can understand the whole big is beautiful, curves are natural movement. And I understand some people are naturally bigger. Some have health problems. But something that pisses me off about it is that people are giving shit to little people. And what I see a lot is that some people who are bigger don't try to do anything about it or that induced it themselves. I even saw a phrase online that said "real men like curves, dogs like bones." Well you know what, screw that. Yes some people are stupid and starve themselves, and that's wrong. Yes, some people make fun of girls that aren't that big and say cruel things. But some little people can't help being that way. Some little people try everything they can to gain weight and they just CAN'T. Some little people are really sensitive about how tiny and bony they are. So yes, our perceptions if what is big are skewed. But not everyone tries to make themselves healthier. And I'm tired of having been given shit my whole life just because I'm tiny. /endbitching.
What do you do when someone changes who they are because of someone they're dating, and turns on you completely? When there is hardly nothing left of who they were, and who they are can't stand you, even though you try to accept it?
And everyone tells you it'll change, she'll learn, it won't last and she'll realize what's happening and that it'll get better, but you don't know if you can take it til then.
I just miss my sister.
What do you do, when you're headed down the same doomed road? You know the ride is beautiful and sweet (however short it may be) but the end is sad and disheartening. You can't stop yourself, because you think, what if there was a fork in the road I didn't notice before? A secret path that got skipped over? Where would it have lead? Would the destination have been as wonderful as the journey, or another horrible accident? I ask myself...and I don't know.
