RYL chat III

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tinamarie: :((
Grrr....: Hi Tina.
tinamarie: hi
Grrr....: how are you?
lilmissjay: now i know how my bf feels when i tell him my problems... :/
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lilmissjay: sorry, random
tinamarie: im planing on ways to die]
Grrr....: tinamarie: why?
tinamarie: david used me forced me to do things i didn want and just left i loved him but he disconectec his ponh numbr i cant live wih out him
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Grrr....: tinamarie: I'm sorry he forced you to do thingd that you didnt want to do, and if he did that why do you love him? and you were alive before you met him most likely, so I think if you have the will to, you can live without him.
Grrr....: things*
tinamarie: idk i should go
Grrr....: why should you go?
tinamarie: cause u cant handel tis
Grrr....: because I cant handle this? or because you cant? I think the second one.
tinamarie: im ment i cant cant
Grrr....: okay, I thought so... well, maybe talking will help?
mew90 Grrr....: tinamarie: Sometimes you love people that are bad for you. Even if you DO know you shouldn't, you can't just change your feelings overnight
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Grrr.... I know this, but I'm trying to get her to rationalize a bit, in hopes that she'll decide she doesnt want to kill herself over the fact that someone shut their phone off..
tinamarie: ok iea lly got to go now to watch tv
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Grrr.... Gotcha. I was gonna go more into it that you still need to work on it buuut she left =[
Grrr.... yeah, I didnt really think she'd stick around long, she'll probably come back tho...
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Grrr....: so... how are you today Mew?
mew90 pretty good
mew90 It's a good day
Grrr....: Thats good.
mew90 last night wasn't so swell but it happens
Grrr....: oh.. Yeah, I understand that..
mew90 WOW room emptied out haha
mew90 mmm well I'm pretty much at the point where, when I want to cut, I know it'll give BRIEF satisfaction, but I'll feel like crap after
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mew90 and I know I'll hate myself more if I DO, and that that could cause a never ending circle of cut-hate myself-cut because I hate myself-cut again
Grrr....: Yeah, it did empty out... and I understand that too..
mew90 In some cases I feel almost fraudulent for saying I'm "free" when I know I still have the urge and have to fight it so hard
OtterPopDisco: hey
mew90 the whole reason I came to RYL was because I knew I was struggling, and If I had a truly bad moment I wanted support
mew90 OtterPopDisco: hi
Grrr....: well, the urging is part of the addiction, and I dont think its something that ever really goes away completely... and its good that you decided to use RYL as a support system...
Grrr....: OtterPopDisco: Hi.
mew90 I don't want to monopolize the conversation, Otter, join in or change subject if you want
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Maha_Papaha: hi
Grrr....: Maha_Papaha: Hi.
Maha_Papaha: I don't feel very well, like I'm not really alive, I feel stale
Grrr....: Maha_Papaha: do you know why you feel like this?
Maha_Papaha: I'm constently battling myself and being fake with people, I focus on things that wont make me happy, I feel grey
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Grrr....: Maha_Papaha: So try to be less fake with people and to focus on things that will make you happy?
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Maha_Papaha: not to sound overly "emo teenager living in the suburbs" - I dont even know how to be truly happy
Grrr....: well, I guess it just starts with little things...
Grrr....: doing things that make you not unhappy.
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Maha_Papaha: eating makes me very unhappy but so does being hospitilized so its kind of a loose loose
Grrr....: well eating is something that you must do...
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Raizoriantkist: Guys...
Grrr....: Maha_Papaha: maybe you could try to make it better by finding something you like taste wise, and eating it?
Grrr....: Raizoriantkist: Hi.
Raizoriantkist: I wanna cut...
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Grrr....: Raizoriantkist: Why?
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Raizoriantkist: Grrr....: My boyfriends dad kicked him out today. He might have to move back to Portland because he has his brother for now, but he can't stay if he can't find a job to provide for himself. I love him. So much. I don't want him to leave. I'm failing classes. My parents yell at me for nothing. I think they hate me. :/
Grrr....: I'm sure your parents dont hate you, they just want you to do well. and If he cant find a job, and has to move its not like you cant date him anymore, and its better that he go somewhere where he can have a home, instead of not having a place to live and staying where he is.
Raizoriantkist: Grrr....: Oregon----Wisconsin. How does that work? :/
Grrr....: Raizoriantkist: lots of people have long distance relationships... talk to him over the phone, and over the computer and stuff like that, and see if that when either of you has the money to if you can visit each other.
mew90 Long distance CAN work. It can be difficult sometimes but if both people are willing to pursue it and make it work, then it can last.